Rising from the creative bottom

Not every day do we find ourselves fighting to get work done as creatives, and times we do we have to work hard on ourselves to get to where we want to be. Comfortable doing what we love. In 2019, I developed a game in one month proudly and with excitement because I achieved my goals of making a game in 1 month, release took an extra 2 months of prep and release effort and lot's of lessons were learned...

During the experience I found a paid job and it made the month period as long as it was.

In 2020 around March I had released my desk from Gameplus Adelaide and packed up my stuff, the effort to get in and the efforts of working full 5 days weeks made it a challenge to come in. What made it even harder, was being required by work to say home till 12:30pm incase they called me in for work. Gameplus was no longer viable and I spent most of my days home waiting for that vital call from work. I had no work within 1-2 months of getting full weeks and it's been about 8 months since I last worked for that business... But I acquired a new job that's paying better and It's helping me achieve goals... Slowly but surely I will achieve them... But something has been going through me when I am home... The feeling of being down so much that you want to do nothing... I've started pushing myself towards working on game mechanics, I've been paying to do a programming course of which I've lacked motivation and when I have been motivated something always changed my tune... During the period I've tried to get things done I've found homes not the place for me... Having someone controlling what you need to do is not satisfactory or appealing... In-fact it's depressing. 2020 is almost here and with any hope I will have my job and be able to try and go back to Gameplus to prove that it really does present the environment nessicary to get you motivated and working! I've also thrown in a few lucky numbers into the lottery for multiple reasons with choices based on reasoning... It was actually funny because every decision I made was based on data I had and everything fitted well together! I don't have my hopes up on winning. I am just hopefully to have the chance to easily turn life around for the better. This week I am feeling really gross, my legs feel horrible sitting at my constrained desk environment and I feel like doing nothing. Though I push myself to try it's hard to maintain the motivation and to get my mind to want to make something. I am hopeful with my new years plans and resolutions. And I can't wait till new years day to share my goals and what I want to do! Thank you and I hope that you guy's with a burning passion don't let up! Your passion is importaint. So don't let up! Regards, Michael Gackle.